I had been studying almost non-stop. It is a while since I was asked to give a lecture and I didn’t want to stuff up.
I guess it is all about trust.
During the weeks preparing for the Krishnamurti 2 hr session I had an original plan, but every time I started pursuing it a tremendous headache stopped me in my tracks, couldn’t even read, leave alone do a Power Presentation.
So was forced to drop the ‘precious plan’, and do very little writing, just soak myself in the subject and trust. Gave the talk last Friday, no–one said a word, just listened and at the end – big applause. Heard from several people (who weren’t even there!) how good it was, evidently they didn’t want to speak and interrupt the flow of my thoughts.
Now been asked to do a 20 minute TS radio interview about ‘K’ as well.
Learning to trust is a hard one, giving up all expectations, Krishnamurti called it “Dying to the known” which is the key to happiness. (No expectations – no disappointment but it’s much more than that). Aryel Sanat’s book “The Inner Life of Krishnamurti” is liiterally a revelation, a very important one, almost chilling in its implications, it hit me like a sudden icy nude shower one day.
Who the hell are we??? So much more than these mundane little lives would lead us to believe. Or not?